hols are no longer hols.
busy sangat. penat sangat.

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and thnx 2 those who’ve remembered my bday dis year. heee~ didn’t quite celebrate dis year’s bday. kaklong is bz with the wedding preparation. and the hse is packed with stuff brought back by kaklong, abang, me and myn. huhu.

yg fes nak wish [ x wish pn lgi ], adam. hahaha. 26. tbe2 je. aisya pn tkjut.

yg second. mr kamal. 26 jgak.

yg third. adam balik. hahaha. 11.59, 27hb.

yg fourth. mashi. 11.59.

pastu, the old-story of mine called. and i’m soo happy 2 rceive dat call. i mean, we weren’t in speaking terms before. haha. and on my bday eve, we are now, frens back. though, there were awkward silence throughout the phone call. and thnx sbb igt. it was indeed very surprising.

ngeee. then, i thnk. on the dot. ilham. mms katak. but couldn’t read the mms. ntah, die kate mms ny memory full. tpi nak x full kn xtw cane. huhu. nak tgk katak tu. nk tgk katak tu.

then the list continues.

kaklong . zaffran . husna . zul . fitri . ashraf . naqib . haziq . farouk . kamil . arif . ariff . farah . azrin . fatin liyana . fatin raihanna . assila . jaja . iman . iman . yati . abang . mama . arah . ayah . kazens . uncles . aunties . luqman . roe wan . nan . daus . fena . fatin . farah . syu . zetty . kugarn . ikhlas . alia . daya . nadia g . sharm . shaukat . najah . coco . ainina . zahirah . cimok . raihan . syahir . zainal . fauzan . juan . ramlah . niro . fakhrul . zamy . daus . atikah . shima . izzah . wahid . nazli . kj . arif . halim . popi . tinesh . ika . anis . farah . shafika .

urm. cm ade lgi je yg trtnggl. huhu. nti i’ll add sumore eh. ni stkt yg igt n tgk kt fb. hihi. hp tnga chrge. nti aisya add la klau x ckup.

early in the morning, assila dtg, together with jaja and iman. invited me to hang out and lunch at her place. heeee. tym tu nsib baek die call dlu, bru bgn tdo. smpat la nk mndi. heeee. mkn2 cket, then g pyrmid. watched 17 again. bru msuk 18. nk msuk 17 balik. hihi. da lame idam2. hihi. las2 dpt jgak. zac efron nk date dgn aisya on my bday rupeny. hahaha.

pastu, g skola sara. mkn cket2. pstu g umah kazen. celebrate kt c2. heee~ kek sedap. pizza pn sedap. pstu, haziq ajk kuar. nqib pn ajk mkn mcflurry oreo. haha. tpi balik tnga mlm. mmg xley la. da la ptut sleepover uma assila. huhu. tape la. bnyk lgi mse, kn. kn.

so basically, dat was it - the day of my 18th bday. hehe. pnat sgt. tpi sronok, sbb rmai yg igt.

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ari ni bnyk bnde jadi. smalam pn bnyk. smalam smalam pn bnyk. smalam smalam smalam pn bnyk. but dun feel like telling yet.

p.s - actually xde mood nk wt post skrg. tapi rse cm nk ckp time kasih kt sume org. nti aisya wt la post baru k. hihi.

mama called, tangguhkan lah plkn.

at last. ^_^ yay! xde mke masam da.

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p.s - abang nk balik da. assila nak balik da. kaklong nk kawin da. aisya nk fly da. ^_^ err. arah nk pmr da?

urm. btw, aisya tanak kwn ngn shaif da. cyes. shaif jahat.

frenships are getting stronger as each seconds passed. people are getting to be much sweeter and nicer and more fun.
i’m not sure if i’m ready to leave all these things behind and go ahead with the path need to be taken.
i’m soo going to miss everything. i’m soo going to miss everyone.

btn will be on the 29th of june, which means that i’ve to postpone my plkn registration stuff. i dunno wt’ll happen next. i’m letting the time decides.

oh btw, kaklong is back. woke up early in the morning to pick kaklong up from airport.

life is a miracle. and no matter how much u wanted to leave sumthing behind, there’s always a reason to stop. there’s always a reason why u can’t just seem to move on easy. it’s surprising how things dat used to make us smile b4, can easily shed our tears. and things dat we hope to forget can paste a smile on our lips.

to top everything, i love you. and you. and you. <3 hearts to all. xoxo.

life has been very beautiful these days. i’ve been socializing too much, but i’m enjoying every sec of it. ^^ well, to start, on friday, went out together with myn, zaf, nqib n adam. played bowling and daytona together. haha. and, well, surprisingly, i was at the 2nd place for bowling. and the first for daytona. imagine, me, aisya aziz, actually won over those guys. hahaha. life has been so great. and i know, the luck was with me throughout the day. bes sgt.

on saturday, zul invited me to cycle at cerakah. together with ppl frm his room and niro’s room. the first plan was for every1 2 bring their pair. i was so xcited to go since niro promised me to show who he’s with. and i got to know other cpls of intec. hahaha. but, i was hesitated since every one has to bring their cpls, and i have none. then, they said that some will just go alone. so, in the end, i asked myself, why not? went to cerakah and had an amazing day there. we were planning to go back by noon, but since the rain was pouring non-stop. we only got to go back around 4. jauh btul 12 ngn 4. mule2 igt msti awkward, snce tak penah lepak ngn diorg. tapi, mmg tak awkward lngsung. skejap je dpt ‘click’. ^^
and it was an amazingly wonderful journey. *********

sunday was superbbb too. went to sg chilling. nver has been dat far with ppl of intec. slluny pling jauh pn, shopping malls - mid, ts. huuuhu. rode on aishah’s car at first, but since azrin’s is empty, he invited me to accompanied him in the car. there’s zul and fakhrul together with us. spanjang tu borak2. tapi asyk kne hambar je. zul ngn fakhrul jahat. haha. nsib baek azrin snyp je. :Pand sg chilling crious bes! 4 cars. and the journey was amazing. journey dalam keta ngn journey jungle trekking. i mean, i hve real heroes throughout jungle trekking, too. azrin, aziz, fakhrul, zul, ajwad, ali, etc. hahaha. tak igt da. i hve to admit dat i wuz kinda slow. pity these ppl who walk bhind me n in front of me. tym lintas sg lagi la. mmg lmbt gle. huhu. diorg sume cm jga2 aisya. ade kt kiri, ade kt kanan, ade kt dpan. ade kt blkg. sume jga. azrin tlong pgg slipar. aziz pgg besi pnyelamat. heeee. tapi tym prjlnn balik, jtuh jgak. huhu. sdey je. xD sume cm da pgg beg, besi. sume2. hahaha. tapi sbb aisya x bgi pgg aisya, aisya pn tjtuh. beg2 sume tak tjtuh. hahaha. nsib baek batu yg trduduk tu dlm air. takdek la pressure kuat sgt. xD

tanak la cite bnyk2.

aSsiLa a: aisya g plkn bile???
aSsiLa a: sy nk cube tanye ayah sy kalo bley tuka tiket awl
aSsiLa a: tpxpasti la

she seems to always understand wat i feel wat i want. we have promised on going out together. she has booked to go back on the 27th of june so dat she’ll be there with me on the 28th. and when i told her dat i couldn’t make it on the 28th, there goes the chit-chatting.

i love her. if this is not whom u cnsider the best fren, then who is?

will neone actually chnge their flight ticket just so dat person will still b with me, when i was the one who has promised dat we’ll hang out together on the 28th? and it’s from russia for heaven sake!
will neone just care how hurtful i am when i was informed dat i hve to go to plkn more than the 2 weeks i’ve always wanted. 3 weeks is still okey. but, COMING BACK ONLY 2 WEEKS B4 I FLY??!!! isy. taknakk!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. benci!

there’s so many highlights throughout the hols.

- kaklong’s wedding
- kaklong’s bday
- assila’s bday
- trip to lgkwi with intec frens.
- meeting the besties.
- hang out with old frens.
- hang out with new frens.
and the list continues…

and imagine all these plans are scratched out.?

will neone just seem to understand?
will neone lend his/her shoulder for me to cry on?

and i just don’t give a damn wtevr it is. i will do nethng, just nethng, so dat i’ll come back, paling lame pn, let it be 3 weeks, or a month. and NOT MORE. klau aisya g, bday assila pn, i won’t b there for her. and i soo don’t want dat to happen! hers is just 2 weeks away from mine.

maybe it isn’t a big deal for u. maybe i exaggerate this too much. and maybe i’m just being too emo-ish.
my sis has promised me dat she’ll b there with me to ask them to let me out early. i’m soo hoping dat it will work.

and blieve me, i’ll b back b4 u guys even found me disappear. even with my dead body. << ni mmg exaggerate. haha.

p.s - aisya yg dlu2 poyo sgt nk msuk, xnk tngguh smpai lpas us. ni la akibat die. pdn muke kt aisya. ktwa la korg.

************* changing mood *************

smalam g pyramid ngn sara. drve keta. mama gave me the car keys, but i am not allowed to go far. dalam kwsn perumahan je, mama ckp. becuz tak servis lagi keta. hhuhu. gonna b vry dangerous for me. and i ain’t prepared for long distance drive.

ngeee. so, plan g mid dgn myn failed. so, went dinner with sara at the pyrmid. waktu balik tu, da tkowt2 da, sebab da gelap. ngeee. nk cri org nk tman balik. sbb park keta across. so, nk jalan ngn sara tkowt jgak la. huuhu.

and out of the blue, met my 17 frens. ^_~ mle2 jmpe alif ngn razif ngn shahrizan ngn ade sorg kwn diorg. tpi da x igt da name. they just arrved hwever. razif actually agreed to accompany me back, but since he just arrved,  i feel wrong doing so. then, met iqbal and i dunno who. he was actually planning to go back home, cuz he was planng to go to mid right after dat.

guys nowadays - suke hang out mlam2. hee.

i wanted to ask him to accmpany me bck. but i dunno y, i was shy to ask him to do so. razif, is like my fren since i was standard 1, and he started all the ‘doraemon’ thingy. so, i was quite ok with him. lgipun, lpe umah iqbal kt ne. haisy. rse mcm area umah aisya tapi klau tbe2 bkan area umah aisya cane kn. haha. tkowt nk drve jauh2.

so end up walking back to the car only with sara. -.-! takpe lah. selamat smpai!~ heee. alhamdulillah.