and the computer science guy.

what i’m feeling now : how could i even go through my days without my ayah by my side? and how much i miss being in the family; with mama, kaklong, abang and arah. share the laughter that only we understand. and these past 3 days seem to remind me all these happiness i have and left in malaysia. they often asked me; i will never be as strong as you are to leave the country and study abroad. and i answered; that’s what the whole family does. and now i see how strong kaklong and abang have been. having ayah by my side the whole 3 days are just not enough. but i can’t be too selfish, can i?

ayah, i really really miss you now.
and the whole family, too. i just miss being in the family and have a vacation with the whole family.

i told ya about my plan; but nothing seems to go according to the plan. i tried to surprise ayah but it didn’t happen. i was waiting and waiting for ayah at the arrival gate. but he didn’t come out. i was worried sick. but i didn’t want to text him, considering that he probably was still busy inside. he text me and told me that he has arrived. so i thought, oh he just entered the airport. so i continue waiting and i text him. just arrived? and he asked me how to get to my place. i was worried that he might have bought a shuttle or something but i continued waiting. i even began to record a video cause i thought in any second ayah would arrive. then i gave up. ayah, i’m here. come out. haha. :p and i looked over through the arrival gate and became restless. everyone saw me i guess. and i just waited and waited. and suddenly ayah came from behind and tapped me on my back. he ended up surprising me. the end. haha. and everyone around us were sort of ‘giggling’ over me and smiled at me. and i hit ayah. how did you do thatt? and it appears that he came out from a different exit. i didn’t know there were two exits! sheesh.

i then used the long way to get back to my house. torture ayah. how dare you surprise me! i’m supposed to be the one who surprise you! haha. ayah, ayahh. and when we arrived home. my chicken rice was almost done. i just need to cook the chicken and that’s it. but i didn’t know what happened to the kitchen. and in the end, ayah cooked for me. haha. imagine him being tired after the long flight and still being able to cook. and seriously, the chicken was amazingly delicious! superlicious. haha. serious. tanya mashi. :p i miss his cook.

and we then walked to rent a car. and it was a longggggggggg walk. haha. kesian ayah. first day da banyak jalan. :p 1 hour walk. imagine that! haha. i thought it was near. i didn’t know the avenue was a long avenue. :p so, we ended up walking all the way. haha. since the temperature was extremely nice, it didn’t really hurt, i guess? then, we were off to dc! tour dc. not much, though. since it was already dark. and went to eat at georgetown and met nazhif there. there weren’t much thing to do in dc. but having ayah around me was enough to make me happy and smile the whole day.

the next day, we planned on getting up early and off to new jersey right after the subuh prayers. i set three alarms! 5, 5.30 and 6! i woke up and saw that the whole room was not dark at all! it was 7.38 am already! goshh, and i promised mama that we would skype at 6. their time. haha. but luckily mama left the skype on, so we called and managed to talk to mama for half and hour. we took breakfast and went off to new jersey.

arriving in new jersey itself was a blast! went to aunty fadhi’s house first. and talked with her til maghrib. and off to stevens. oh, but went to panasonic before that. :p just to show off kaklong’s working place. hee. met syaz and redz and uncle faizul and aalia and azmi. they were talking ‘business’ things so me, together with syaz and redz played with aalia and azmi for a while. then i was left with the kids. it was okay though. until i turned and saw no one around. haha. i was scared. how could you guys leave meeeeeee? and so, i called aunty fadhi. then they came back together with things that kaklong left.

oh kaklonggg. luckily we brought the car with us. haha. there’s too many things. and the handbag was beautiful!!!! suke gileee. ngan printer pun. i totally need the scanner and the color. :p periuk nasi. well. simply everything. and i can start fencing anytime after this. pasni jadi tough cam kaklong. haha.

and we went to eat at amin’s. kaklong’s favorite. and ordered the sesame chicken. kaklong’s favorite too. kaklongg, can you see how many people actually miss you? hee. even aalia told me; i miss kak nisa. muka die crious cm rindu sangat2. huuu. aisya tgk. kesian je. taktau nak wat apee.

and after that, syaz and redz accompanied us to new york. night at new york. :p tapi tak pegi mane sangat pun. since we need to catch the 11.45 bus. haha. so went to the empire state building. but didn’t climb up. since there was a short queue. and there would be another 5 queues. takut we have no time to go someplace else. we ended up wandering around the times square only. went to m&ms and toys r us. but it was still a blast. i totally enjoyed it. and ayah enjoyed it, too. thank you so much, syaz and redz!

yesterday. drove back to college park. i went to my lab session. and that was the end. didn’t get to show ayah around university of maryland. but according to ayah, we don’t have to finish it up now. ayah will come again someday. and if we finished up today, then there’s nothing left for ayah to see. i was totally okay with that. as long as you come again, okay? and ayah said, we’ll bring mama together next time. mama will totally enjoy this.

we took the last bus to the bwi airport. i tagged along. it was only 10 pm. ayah would be bored if he was left alone in the airport. so we were together the whole night. but we didn’t do anything actually. grabbed supper. and went to some long seats and slept there until 3.30 am. later, we took our breakfast and ayah went off.

i couldn’t stop myself from crying.
ayah will not be with me again until i’m back during summer. ayah said that he’ll come to us every 3 months if he managed to open an office here. and i promised to fly to silicon valley every now and then.

ayah : i love you, sayang.
aisya : *tears*
ayah : i’m proud of you, okay.
aisya : *tears*
ayah : take care. study!
aisya : *tears*

after ayah lined up, only then i could began talking again. so i shouted, i love you, too. and our meets ended up with a couple of waves. and ayah is off to san francisco. he hasn’t arrived yet i think. he’ll be arriving at 10.30 according to him.

ayah, safe journey, okay? i love you.

i would meet my ayah. and i seriously can’t wait. so, we’re not going to do whatever things i’ve planned. :p ayah wants to go to new jersey. so new jersey that is. haha. yay!

ayah, faster faster. yesterday seemed to move too fast. i wonder about today.
but i’m planning on working on my discrete structure and dance class the whole day. so, it might be a slow day. haha. :p

i just can’t wait.
i miss you so much ayah.

random facts : do you know that time has shorten for about 1 millisecond? because of the Chile Earthquake. we loss 1 millisecond everyday. sheesh. how sad.

^_^

haha, in the end, my lecturer was the one who actually told the whole class that my dad is coming.

“her dad is coming next week! i love to see the family happiness.”

and i smiled shyly but proudly
shy and proud seem to have opposite meanings. who cares. :p