and reading his status today make me really really happy.

he really does respect us, doesn’t he? and a lot of his other american friends. sometimes, they are thought on thinking the other way round. i mean, books on Islam here, too. some parts weren’t so true. some parts just may confuse readers of the thought of Islam. and some novels just tell how Muslims are just bad. it’s sad. but, that’s how things work here and i guess to change these all may require a lot of effort. and we can see how some still don’t believe the books and they respect and have faith in all other religions. no religion is bad. it just depends on one’s belief. and how one would discover the truth after holding the belief tight.

i tried to imagine myself if i were not borned as Muslim. i wouldn’t even think of a way that i would convert. when would i seek for the hidayah? when will i realize that Islam is the right path? MasyaAllah. mmg dilahirkan Islam ialah satu nikmat/kurniaan yang tidak terhingga dari Allah. kan?

now, just to make things clear. i’m not trying to say christians are bad or what. neither do they. i mean, people said christians are gonna burn the Al-Quran or have done so. but hey, probably it’s not even christians doing it! who knows. who knows. all we need now is for each other to respect each other’s religion. like how these friends of mine did. i respect him even more now.

p.s and sorry for just cutting and pasting this in my blog. i’m just so happy when i see my friends here actually have a status that.. is just so respectful. but, just in case, i blackened the name. your privacy i guess?

p.s.s hadiah raya from them. now, i can smile.

i feel. so. lonely. so. empty. so. alone.
i’m scared. i wanna cry.

i don’t think i know how to really ask if something matters. people sometimes come to me to tell their problems and all. i would listen. i def would listen. but, i don’t know how to, after the next meet, ask if the problem is settled or not. i don’t even know how to respond to them telling me about these. i have too many great friends. that would listen to me. that would bare with me with my mood swings and all. but i don’t think i’ve ever been that great to them. i can cry, listening to people’s problems. i can cry, seeing how my friend is hurt or doing something out of his/her crazy mind; and still have no guts asking if she/he was okay. i know how things look okay and all, and i, too, know when things are just not okay and no one would tell me anything. and i would just cry imagining my friends hurting and keeping them all inside them. i can just cry and that’s all i do. well, even if i don’t cry, i do have this sensitive side of me that makes my stomach twist and heart hurting, just to see everyone else hurts.

i’m sorry i haven’t been a good friend to all of you. even a best friend i have since primary school. it used to be easy to share our innermost secrets and feelings and all. but i guess, as we grew older. we started drifting apart and to share all our problems seem unusual.

i don’t ask these wonderful friends i have, for their problems, i would keep on blabbing about my problems and all of them would listen thoughtfully. i thought, well, if you want to tell me your probs, go ahead and do so. i won’t ask you because i don’t want to annoy you or irritate you or force you to say something you wouldn’t wanna say to me. too ignorant maybe?

so, my raya resolution is to be a better friend to everyone.

just 8 mins ago, the last sahur for the ramadhan this year has ended. it’s sad being left by the ramadhan month just like that. it’s sad how last night or just 10 mins ago, signals the end of the month. i am soo hoping that i would meet ramadhan again next year because i feel like i haven’t done much upgrade compared to the last ramadhan. i was too obsessed on leaving malaysia and arriving to the united states that i felt like.. i don’t know. i haven’t done much during this ramadhan!

so,

seriously, when i first watched gossip girls. they are like the couple i hated the most.
like, forheavensake, chuck, stop playing with girls! blaire, give up and admit that you’ve always loved chuck.

but now.. everytime i watch gossip girls, i will always wait for their part. what they’ll do next.

seriously, i feel like they are R.E.A.L.. having these mixed up feelings and not knowing what they really have to do. if they would give up their ‘flirtious’ life in order to be with the love of their life. and like, how they feel like they like some other people but they know deep inside that they can’t live without each other. and how when they see the other person having someone else in their arms (or even just a slight flirt!), they just couldn’t stand how it stabs their hearts.

awuuuuuu~ saya hot. :)) hahahaha.
(lepas exercise la kot. haha.)
tapi klau slim nanti x sexy. :p mane lagi best. sexy ke hot?

guess mane satu aisya? *wink*

omg, i was totally mad at ups; i’ve waited right in front of the door for like HOURS. and i’ve called and called them asking if they would deliver it by today, else i would pick it up myself. if it’s SO HARD for them to deliver it themselves. but they kept on promising me that they would make it on time on that day itself and send it directly in front of my house. 2 days of empty promises. (mcm org heartbroken pun ade. haha.) you know how patience has its limits, too. seriously. i couldn’t do anything! i couldn’t even take my bath until 10 pm, just so i would not miss the delivery! i couldn’t watch the TV because i was scared that i might concentrate on the tv so hard that i couldn’t hear the door bell. and what i did was.. i laid down in front of the couch in front of the door. and read books. imagine doing that for like.. 2 days and still haven’t gotten my laptop yet! geeez. that requires A LOT of patience.

now, ups has a totally bad reputation.. from me.

ok, tapi bile dapat laptop………. rase terus. ok. lepas tgk laptop. bukak laptop. hihi. die nye plastic2 x bkk lagi. :p syg sgt. tapi esok kne bwk pegi uni. msti kne jgak bkk plastic. tanak bkk. tanak bkk. haha. suke sgt.

it’s an ASUS k52JC, with the i5 intel processor.

these will be the list of what makes me become soo much interested in it.
- duh! it’s i5!!
- with nvidia geforce 310M graphics card.
- 500GB harddisk. which is, i guess. good enough?
- the RAM is 4GB DDR3
- and oh well, it’s kinda light. ^_^ and it’s 15.6″.. well that’s normal i guess? but i’ve looked at a 17″. it is SOO cool. but it’s just too big to be brought everywhere. so probably it’s not a good idea to buy large screens laptop. well, maybe i would buy a monitor itself! then bile kite skype bole la tgk every inc of the face and all. :)) ahaha. well, that would be A GREAT idea. ^_^
- die punya keyboard pun agk cool. :p

cume so far, one let down die. webcam die kot. well, i’ve never really tried yet. maybe it’s the room. rase cm bile tgk webcam nmpk kurg comel. mcm mne nk skype ni. HAHA. :)) oh, and something to do with the eSATA stuff that is still new and would help in making the latest laptop much faster, sort of? i have no idea about eSATA. but, oh well. let’s just see how the laptop performs in this couple of weeks. so far, i totally LOVE it. (except for the webcam part. probably i have to makeup. :)) before looking at the webcam or something. HAHA.)

*sbb tu ajakan skype harini telah direject. hahaha.

ok, bnyk sgt nk cite. nk letak peach pie i made myself dlm ni jgk. bnyk sgt. tapi maybe nk tggu antivirus and dvd-r dlu kot. then baru aisya explore abes2 ok.? *loves*

XOXO.
gossip girl.

haha.

angkat tangan siapa setuju. sometimes, we even wonder what’s so interesting about that person and we just can’t find one anymore. this statement is obviously for me, and everyone else. might be you.

seriously, i haven’t been eating anything much. and i can’t even finish one doughnut. i bought two. and forced myself to finish one. but the other one? it’s still in my bag. all i want is to drink some water. and that’s it. i don’t want anything else. i didn’t eat anything yesterday, so i forced myself on eating maggie at least, that night. the day before, i tried making spaghetti just so that it would look appealing to eat. but i still had a hard time finishing it. i’m not having flu. so my deria pernafasan ok je. i can smell all the food. but i still can’t eat. :\ i don’t feel like eating anything. i thought of making burgers or something. or maybe chicken rice. anything. but, i just don’t feel like eating. mashi said, it’s a good time to lose weight. but this has never really happened. i once had this ‘lose appetite’ thing before. but it’s only for rice. i didn’t want to eat rice. but burgers and sandwiches would make me eat. :\ but i can’t think of anything that would want to make me eat. (oh, time tgh xd mood nk mkn nasi tu. hilg 5-6 kg! haha)

urgh, i just want to find something to eat. but nothing seems appealing. nak cakap tgh sedih, tgh xde mood. seronok je ni. kelas pun best. org sume baik. nak jumpe kwn2. tapiii. hurm. saya cuma nak makan ais krim jee. tu je. benda lain tanakkk. so i kept on getting milkshake for myself. tu je kot yg nampak sedap. (skrg dah lose 3-4 kg. haha)

ok. kantoi tak puasa. hahaha. :\ dah publish baru terigt kan. hahahahha.

my basketball class was FAR. and it’s early in the morning, so i decided to cycle to class.
but what i didn’t think of was the clothes i brought to change. :\
i brought a flowery long dress. (ade org puji cantik sgt2. :p)

now… how on earth aisya nak bawak basikal ni balik? :\ aaaaaaaaa.

 p.s mr bicycle, malam ni awk bermalam dkat campus eh. jumpe ms bicycle. :3 :3 mlm ni jee tauuuuuuu. jgn ngde2 sgt, nanti sy jeles. :p *terigt dlu2 nme panggilan sorg tu. bicycle. :p :p haha.

p.s 2 haha playstation 2. :p klas basket half sem je rupenyeeeee. so my basketball class will only start on october. ^_^

people start texting me and calling me asking if i am free so that we can hang out together.
rupenye aisya dah ade kawan kat cni yang bukan setakat kawan kelas je kan.
selama ni selalu jalan same2 after class/study group.
tapi dah takde class takde study group. they still call utk nak hang out.

p.s tadi cakap2 dalam class. one minute, my voice was all good. the other minute, suara tenggelam. i’m losing my voice. tapi bukan jadi suara serak2 basah sexy tu. jadi soft gile. haha, mesti diorg tadi igt suara aisya mmg sgt soft. :p diorg sruh ckp kuat cket, terus terbatuk2.